happy birthday paul mccartney.

I really like having this blog but I find it hard to remember that I have it let alone remember to post on it most of the time. So much and so little has been happening in my life lately. The zoo has been great, most of the people are really easy to get along with and the ones that aren't just make work....more interesting I guess. Some of the keepers I did my co-op with have been helping me by suggesting certain things to read to help me prepare for interviews and such in the future. One book I'm reading right now is called "Don't Shoot the Dog," which is kind of ironic since my family has recently considered doing just that (except no gun, less harshly, euthanasia) so maybe this is God's way of nudging that we shouldn't let Rusty go just yet. Or maybe this is his way of giving me an opportunity to put what I'm reading about into practice! Only He knows, we'll see. I've also been thinking a lot about my near future and what I want to do with the time between summers. My heart right now is telling me to travel or apply for some internships abroad somewhere so I can see part of the world and gain some experience. I do not know what God has in store for me and it's really difficult for me to let go and just trust Him sometimes but I do know that whatever He has planned for me will be great. Even if I don't think so at the time. My whole life kind of revolves around the zoo right now and while I'm so happy that God has given me the opportunity to work there, I wish there was something outside of the zoo to occupy my time as well. Spending my extra time with my family is all well and good but being able to see friends more often would be nice too. I wish I had hobbies sometimes. I guess I could just try to pick something up but arts and crafts don't always interest me and I'm not sure what else is out there. Really I should start reading more again; I feel it will help my gain back my spelling skills at least and let me use my imagination more often. I so badly want to see the world I think but maybe in a couple of months God will place a new desire in my heart and I will be satisfied doing something else.

Crickets.

My new job at the TORONTO ZOOOOO is taking up a lot of my time and when I get home all I want to do is sleep. I'm really enjoying it despite the fact I clean toilets everyday and my boss is a super creeper, but the other people are really nice so it's good. I realized something yesterday though, I'm finding it really difficult to be confident in my Christianity. When people are making lude jokes are telling stories about that time when they were soooo wasted I find myself shutting down and just laughing at the appropriate times. I don't know what is causing me to do this since I know what I believe and I know it's right but any opportunity that comes up I brush it off and wait for it to go away. This is something I know I can learn from and hopefully God will use this situation to be a light in a dark place, but it's just frustrating to be going through right now.

"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to fail you." - Jeremiah 29:11

long day.

So I've realized that a watched kettle truly never boils.

zookeeper for a fortnight.

Tomorrow is the day!! I'm super excited and nervous at the same time. After these two weeks I'm either going to want to do anything possible to pursue this job full-time or I'm going to be looking for other work. Most likely I'm going to continue doing everrrything I can to get closer to this career. Yay!

here we go.

I finished college today! Technically i still have to hand in a report and do my co-op placement, but i don't have to actually go to the school anymore! It is a strange feeling being done, after my co-op placement i don't really know what's in store for me but i think i'm ready for something new. I crave something new. I really crave going somewhere i've never been that's at least a plane ride away. Let's fly away.

new blog.

This is my new blog!

Not going to lie, Kam made it for me. Also, Kam isn't going to lie either, and I am actually writing this, not michelle. It's ok if you delete this poops.

Best picture EVER.