happy birthday paul mccartney.

I really like having this blog but I find it hard to remember that I have it let alone remember to post on it most of the time. So much and so little has been happening in my life lately. The zoo has been great, most of the people are really easy to get along with and the ones that aren't just make work....more interesting I guess. Some of the keepers I did my co-op with have been helping me by suggesting certain things to read to help me prepare for interviews and such in the future. One book I'm reading right now is called "Don't Shoot the Dog," which is kind of ironic since my family has recently considered doing just that (except no gun, less harshly, euthanasia) so maybe this is God's way of nudging that we shouldn't let Rusty go just yet. Or maybe this is his way of giving me an opportunity to put what I'm reading about into practice! Only He knows, we'll see. I've also been thinking a lot about my near future and what I want to do with the time between summers. My heart right now is telling me to travel or apply for some internships abroad somewhere so I can see part of the world and gain some experience. I do not know what God has in store for me and it's really difficult for me to let go and just trust Him sometimes but I do know that whatever He has planned for me will be great. Even if I don't think so at the time. My whole life kind of revolves around the zoo right now and while I'm so happy that God has given me the opportunity to work there, I wish there was something outside of the zoo to occupy my time as well. Spending my extra time with my family is all well and good but being able to see friends more often would be nice too. I wish I had hobbies sometimes. I guess I could just try to pick something up but arts and crafts don't always interest me and I'm not sure what else is out there. Really I should start reading more again; I feel it will help my gain back my spelling skills at least and let me use my imagination more often. I so badly want to see the world I think but maybe in a couple of months God will place a new desire in my heart and I will be satisfied doing something else.